Comment on So you grew up with a dad who didn’t know how to express love? Here’s how it could be affecting you today (part 2) by Sarah M.
This is an amazing article, and, for those like myself, oddly comforting, mostly in knowing us girls are not alone. Throughout my life, I often tried to get close with my father. I would try what he was interested in, but then his interest would wane, and I was left alone, holding the fragments of my attempt, and feeling to blame. I turned to food for comfort, and am now dealing with the ramifications. But I stopped trying with my father. His pride in me often felt contrived, and I knew it was one of his many masks he puts on for everyone else. This has left me with no trust in men, something I just can’t bring myself to overcome. It’s as if I have nothing left for them after trying so hard for the first 16 years of my life. So, now ten years later, nothing has changed with my father. I want to be a mother, so I’m going to become a single mother by choice, and I know my brother will be an amazing rather figure for my child. As difficult as my life will be with these decisions, I somehow feel freer in letting it go and just moving on, because, honestly? The more I try, the less self esteem I have left, and so I’m taking what I’ve got left and building my life, a good, healthy life, surrounded by people I love and who love me in return.
All the best,
Sarah M.
